So April has turned out to be the worst month of my life. Beth and I are fighting. It seems we're barely talking. Today at lunch, I basically was degraded and put down, like I was a piece of trash and someone was throwing me away.
And all I did was ask what was going on friday, when Nichole said…
"Well, I'm getting my nails done alone, because someone's sister can't do her chores for her." Which was when Nichole glared at me. And Krissie said…
"Faith, you would do my chores?"
And then Faith said, "No your sister." And then I was sitting there feeling really bad, and stuff, and Krissie said, "Yeah, because my sister, actually does stuff." And then she laughed.
I honestly felt like crying. I'm a person. A human being just like everyone else. I have feelings, and emotions. I break down and cry sometimes. I'm not perfect, I mess up a lot. I get frustrated when I don't do things right. I have bad days and good things, more bad days then good. I try to smile, but sometimes I don't find much reason to. So when I frown and stuff, people say I mope to much. I don't change myself to meet people's standards, I'm me. Sometimes when life gets me down, I lock myself in the bathroom and cry for awhile. I know that it doesn't help anything, but I still do it. I just don't feel like anyone appreciates me anymore. And if no one in the entire world cares about you, then do you really exist at all?
So while I'm cleaning the bathroom, I'll have a breakdown and cry most likely, because today was really bad. I'm happy to say I didn't cry.
See ya, Moon.
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